Friday, September 14, 2012

I promise I was there...


when these kiddos were made.  Even though they don't appear to share my genes.  I suppose Sean just has super genes.  (In case you don't know, the top picture is Levi and the bottom is Lucy.)  I can see the difference, obviously, but these two sure do look alike in the womb.  And I would say that maybe all babies look alike in these pictures, but Levi sure did look JUST like his sono picture when he made his arrival.  They definitely have the same nose.  Probably Sean's nose :)  Maybe I'll get to share the blue eyes with both of them.  We shall see!

We are having a little struggle, here, friends.  Someone in our family is smarter than your average three-year-old.  But he is not more emotionally developed than your average three-year-old.  So he is really starting to struggle because he UNDERSTANDS everything that's going on in his life (aka: new baby coming, new home, new school, new church) but he doesn't really have the tools he needs to DEAL with everything that he understands.  Which is resulting in some serious toddler anxiety.  Like throwing up he's so anxious.  He worries about where the baby will sleep, where she will sit in the car, how I will feed her, where her diapers will go, etc. etc.  He worries that I will be overwhelmed and he NEEDS to help me.  What toddler has these kinds of thoughts?!?!  He is so sensitive and tender-hearted already, and that, on top of this new anxious spirit that is oppressing him, has him falling apart.  We thought (in our infinite parental wisdom and discernment) that he was adjusting so well, no problems, sleeping through the night in his own bed, blah blah blah.  It just really started getting intense this week with the throwing up and the mini anxiety attacks over getting in trouble or random issues like where Baby Lucy will sit in the car.  He is also having nightmares  and struggling with fear at bed time every night.  How do I help my little one?  Any moms have experience or advice here?  As a mom I am just having a hard time letting it "work itself out" like a certain male parent thinks I should :)  Just kidding, he advises me to pray deeply and often for him, and to love him through it.  Which I am doing to the best of my ability. (I think I am making this seem a lot more serious than it really is, right now Levi is making his trains and cars crash and laughing as the fall off the coffee table.  He is still my joyful, playful, silly boy :)

Anyway, that's what's going on with us.  I know anxious mommy makes anxious babies, so pray that I will hold on the the peace of the Lord and trust Him wholeheartedly with this!  He knew my sweet baby would walk through this time, and he has walked it before us, is walking it with us now.

"For I am the LORD your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you 'Do not fear, I will help you.'" Isaiah 41:13