Thursday, April 30, 2009

Okay, so for those of you who don't know, Sean and I are moving this week. Not only are we moving, which is already a somewhat stressful time what with all the packing and lugging things to this place and that, but our lease is up TODAY, and we just got the keys to our new place YESTERDAY. Ohhhh, the stress of the situation. And because of little Baby Campbell who has caused me to miss multiple days of school already, neither one of us could take off work to get any of this done. Hoooray. Well, realistically, I don't know what me taking off of school would really accomplish anyway, since my mom, Sean's mom, and Sean forbid me to lift anything anyway. Little do they know, lifting is a part of life, you can only refrain from so much lifting! Especially when you're moving.

So here's the good news: we have the best family and the most amazing friends in the world. Yesterday, my sister came over during the day to finish packing for us and get a head start on cleaning the place, and mom came shortly after I got home to help. Then Sean got home, and brother-in-law and dad were right behind him. We got everything packed (even some things I needed for today, but oh well) and most things cleaned. PS: Cleaning baseboards is stupid.

Anyway, we moved a good load into the new place, and we have everything else ready to go today. And we have a huge group of people who are taking time out of their weeknight to come and help. We are so incredibly grateful! The Lord is so faithful to provide and to take care of us! We honestly don't know what we would do without the awesome support of our fam and friends! Well we do know that we would have a whole lot of boxes to move by ourselves, that's for sure.

Anyway, on a side note, my baby is getting bigger now, about the size of peach, and is definitely causing some discomfort for me at night. What advice do you mommies have about how to get some sleep??? I wake up constantly having to use the bathroom, and can't get back to sleep for anything! And I have a loooooooooooooooooooooong way to go people! I'm pretty sure it's only going to get worse! Well, I could use some friendly advice if you have any. My back is killing me already. I'm starting to think that pregnancy just doesn't agree with me. Hmph.

Okay, so I am getting a digital camera soon (my old one jumped in the ocean), so hopefully my posts will become more aesthetically pleasing in the future. Until then they will just have to be visually boring, but as mentally stimulating as they always are. You're welcome.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Okay, so most horrible, most wonderful day ever. On Saturday, I started having this horrible, burning, stabbing pain in my stomach, right below my chest and above my bellybutton. It got so bad that I was doubled over in pain, screaming out at the top of my lungs, much to my husbands delight, I'm sure. And probably my neighbors' as well. It felt like a stomach ulcer (not that I have ever had one of those, but if I had, that's what it would have felt like.) Or just really bad acid indigestion, but I HAVE had that before and this was nothing like that. Or so I thought...

So I went to Care Now to have them check me out and see what they could do for me. The doc came in for about 2 minutes, pressed on my belly and then left. She came back with this news: "You are pregnant, and you have severe abdominal pain..." Ummmmmmmm, ok, I told YOU that..... "So I'm going to send you to the ER." I'm sorry WHAT??!!?!?!??!?!? Pregnant lady's worst nightmare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, my sister took me to the Emergency room at Baylor Grapevine, and they were ready for me. They took me back, made me put on a "gown" (how can they even call it that?) and had me wait. Of course. A little while later, my 'rents showed up, and a little while after that, my in-laws showed up.

All the while, the father of my child is speaking at a DNow, wishing that the youth pastor would hurry up and let him speak!!!! But alas, there were games to be played. Who cares that your wife is in the ER, pregnant and in pain?

So the doc at the ER comes in and tells me they will run a few tests, do an ultrasound, and get back to me. They took some serious blood, and gave me a serious shot of morphine (praise the Lord) and let me wait in agony wondering if my sweet baby is going to be ok or not. AAArrrrGGHHHH. It was horrible. It wasn't very long, though before the quirky ultrasound tech, Kristie, came in. She was an interesting gal, for sure. But she did a wonderful job, and confirmed that my child was in fact ok. We got to see the little one doing flips, waving, and pretty much jumping all around in there. I was surprised I couldn't feel all of that! And Kristie, in all of her infinite ultra-sound tech wisdom, is pretty sure that we are having....A BOY! Wow, crazy. What am I going to do with a boy??? I am super happy, though. Boys are sweet :) And I hear they really love their mommies. I have to have another ultrasound in about 4-5 weeks just to make sure, because this is super early to know the sex. She was just telling me her opinion. And I appreciate that, Kristie. I do.

Sadly, Sean was still not here for this. Don't worry though, my mom, Sean's mom, and my sister were there. So they knew before he did. Bummer. Also, it was really frustrating because Kristie had the screen facing away from me the ENTIRE time, right up to the very end, so while the moms and my sister got a great show, I got NOTHING. Boo. I'm the one carrying the child, right?? Where's the justice??? It's ok, though, I got to hear the heartbeat and I did get to see the little kid, even if only for a moment.

All in all, it ended up being a very beneficial 5 hour trip to the Emergency Room. They determined it must be horrible, severe, incredibly painful acid indigestion. I'm still pretty sure it's an ulcer, because I have a lot of medical saavy, and tons of knowledge about the human body. But for now, I will trust Cameron, since he IS the ER doc/PA. They gave me some prescription antacids, and some serious pain meds to get me through the next week. I will be talking to my OB to see what my options are, though, as soon as I can.

So, praise the Lord for a healthy, very active baby boy! (We think. No one go out buying boy clothes or anything). I am so happy, and for the first time really getting excited about being this baby's mommy! Its amazing what seeing the little one can do for your outlook. Pray for me friends, that I will be able to get through this horrible pain and be able to function normally for the next 5 weeks! School doesn't stop for serious hearburn, people!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Sleeeeeeeeeeep

Okay, so I am exhausted! Every day after work, I feel like I just climbed a mountain! And it doesn't seem like I can get enough sleep...or enough food for that matter. I feel like I am hungry immediately after I eat, haha. Oh the joys of being a baby incubator.

So I have some pretty amazing news for my Public-School-System-employed friends, we only have 5 weeks of school left! Praise the Lord! That is what will be getting me through each day pretty much for the next 5 weeks.

Well my amazing hubby is speaking at a D-Now tonight, and I am going to be in attendance, so I am going to go and get ready. I am so lucky that I get to be his girl. Whew.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Good Friday and Easter

So I watched The Passion of the Christ on Saturday (I decided I needed a little reminder about what is truly important in my life) and of course, I cried like a baby. But it really got me thinking about this coming season, and most importantly this coming weekend. Easter had never been one of my favorite holidays by any means, until recently. I guess I always thought it was kind of boring, eggs and bunnies and all the pastel colors, ugh. I am not a fan of pastel colors.

But watching the movie this weekend reminded me of how in recent years Easter has become possibly my MOST favorite holiday. Not because of the pastels, mind you. Or the eggs and bunnies. But because the event that we celebrate the second Sunday in April changed my entire life. It is the single most important date in history, once and for all, and most definitely the most important in my short life. This is the date, 2000 years ago, when my life, my very soul hung in the balance of eternity, and Jesus rescued me. It wasn't on a white horse, and I wasn't even born yet. But the blood that was shed that day covers me still.

In 2 Samuel 14:14, the Scripture says "Like water spilled on the ground that cannot be recovered, so we must die. But God does not take away life. Instead, He devises ways that a banished man may not remain estranged from Him."

Not only did Jesus provide the ultimate reconciliation between myself and Almighty God, but God created this love story of history, devising a way that I might not remain estranged from Him. All things before this led up to this point. He didn't just throw this together last minute (although even if He did I would be eternally grateful), but He devised a way to bring me back to Him. It took thought, and effort, and desire, and He did it anyway. It makes me sad that I can't really remember a time when I have actually devised a plan to get closer to God. When I have used my human smarts to make a plan that would foster intimacy with Him. And yet God pooled all of His infinite knowledge and wisdom to create the perfect plan of atonement for me. I'm overwhelmed by that.

You know, if the mercy and grace of God ended there, at the cross, that would be enough for me. But it didn't. And it won't end now, or any time soon. God's loving compassion knows no end, has no boundaries. My husband, my family, our home, and all the other blessings in our lives are proof of this. Praise the Lord for his eternal goodness, for His mercies that are new every morning!

So my prayer for this week, and this weekend, is this: That God would keep me near the cross. That I would spend my time there, working out what it means for me every day. I pray that it would never get old, never get commonplace for me. Or for you, friends. Don't worry, I'll get to Sunday sometime this week :) I won't forget about the celebration that awaits us on Easter morning. But for now, lets think about the cross...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Crazy times.

Ok, so I know I haven't posted in SO LONG, pretty much since September, but I am in fact still alive. Barely, but I am. I'm pretty sure if my work has anything to do with it, I won't be alive for long though.

There is so much going on for us right now, that I can't even believe it. Sean got into PA School! I am so so proud, and can't even believe I am married to such a stud. He is just amazing and I adore Him. He will be attending UNT Health/Science Center in downtown Fort Worth. Hooray!

Another piece of exciting news is that we have decided to do Apartment Life, Cares ministry! For those of you who don't know, this is a ministry that works throughout different apartment properties, sending teams in to serve and minister to the tenants. We will be planning events, having parties, and visiting new people who move in. It is a two year committment, so we will be doing this for a while, and we are super-excited! (I'm not sure how having a little one in November will affect this, but I'm sure it will be tons of fun!)

Also, my sister and her husband just bought a house! We are so excited for them and can't wait to help them get settled in.

God has been so gracious to us! We are in awe of His precious mercy and faithfulness! There have definitely been times lately where I have questioned his purposes for what has been going on around us, but it is good to look back on all of the ways He has proven Himself faithful to me, and to Sean, in the past. I was recently listening to a song by Sarah Groves, a Christian artist, that has one of my favorite lines in the world: "I can't remember a trial or a pain He did not recycle to bring me gain. And I can't remember one SINGLE regret in serving God only, and trusting His hand." Oh how true this line is for me! And I am grateful that He is teaching me to trust Him more!

One really amazing lesson He has been teaching me this week in particular, is one that he has been working with me on for quite sometime. I guess I just can't seem to get it! That is the truth that God alone is the One I should be working for, living for. I have this insane need to please everyone, and for everyone to like me, and when they don't, or they don't treat me fairly, it devastates me! I get this giant chip on my shoulder, and wallow in my hurt and anger, which really only hurts myself. The person who I feel is treating me poorly doesn't care, and talking to them rarely makes a difference. This is the second time in my life where I have felt like I am trapped in a completely unfair situation, with a person who is just mean to me for no reason. And you know what, even though the people were different, they behave the same! They aren't going to change, and they aren't going to care. The only thing that I can do is trust God and remember to listen to the Voice of Truth. As Casting Crowns would say "The Voice of Truth says 'Do not be afraid.' And the Voice of Truth says 'This is for My glory.'" And I trust that. I really do. I have no reason not to, just a lifetime of God proving faithful to me. And if gaining intimacy with Him costs me heavily, I will do it, it will be worth it. I really believe that.

Well, off to work, friends. I will try to post more consistently, haha.